One day I thought, "Hey. I should write more about God. I should start a GOD BLOG." And here I am, TWO YEARS LATER, writing the About Page. After two years you'd think I'd know exactly what to say in this space, but I'm coming up blank. I'm not entirely sure what this is about. STILL.
I am a cradle Catholic who took a deep four-year dive into non-denominational Protestant-ness in college. I married the only other cradle Catholic in our fellowship and ultimately chose liturgy over worship bands, which isn't to say I don't love non-denominational Protestant-ness. I do. In some ways I think I fit better with that group of folks, but I know I'm supposed to be Catholic. I'm just not always sure what I should be doing as a Catholic.
This is where someone says something like, "It's not about doing stuff," and good point, Someone! This is why, after ten-ish years of fairly consistent and hard core involvement in our parish, I am taking a step back. Well, actually it's because my husband went back to school this year and we chose to take monthly meetings and volunteer events off our schedules. But I'm thinking a forced-stoppage of Doing is probably good for me, since every time I sign up for something I think, "Maybe THIS is where I'll find God! Maybe THIS is when I'll figure out what he wants me to do!"
Obviously that hasn't happened.
When I was making a rather poor attempt to explain why I wanted to start this new site - share my vision, if you will, though it's clear I don't have much vision - a friend told me I should definitely go for it. There were so many things she, personally, would be interested in reading and she was sure others would too. Like, what do I think about the Church's teaching on birth control? Homosexuality? Am I a salad bar Catholic? Do things in the media or pop culture upset me because I'm Catholic?
And I have to tell you (and her): I'm pretty sure this website won't be about those things. I mean, it MIGHT. I rule nothing out! But honestly, other people are writing those things and ALL of them do it better than I could ever hope. I find those things interesting, fascinating, important, serious, all of that. But I also find them secondary to just knowing God. I think (and trust) that the rest of it can be figured out later. I know that sounds simplistic, I also know there are things about my personality and moments in my past that make it easy for me to put the sticky questions aside, but that's the way I am. That's how my faith works.
And that's the viewpoint of this website, I guess. When I was praying about whether I should even DO this I felt panicky and overwhelmed - it seems like a churchy website WOULD tackle those churchy questions, and I'm positive God does not want me on his Apologetics Team. (NO ONE wants me on their Apologetics Team.) But somewhere in there I heard: just tell people about Me. So that's what I'm going to do.
Is this the longest about page EVER? Dude. At this rate I will never get to the blog itself. God is probably all, "That's great, Maggie, really lovely, so when do you start, you know, WRITING IT?"
